What do you see in your daily life ? Are you happy about it ?....the loneliness that sinks into your soul desperately craving to be alive in this world were you are only a fungus under a bush. The chase of others to connect and be with someone who sees you ,it all sounds meaningless - but yet I long for it ,to be seen ,to be loved and needed by someone. To be begged to stay forever. For that one person who will truly know me from head to toe ,from skin to my bones,flesh to soul.

The sky held many stars watching over the night, scattered like distant eyes above the city of Havenfall. Beneath them, the darkness swallowed the spaces between buildings.

In the narrow gap between two structures, a man stood with a baseball bat.

Another figure lay on the ground.

He didn’t think much at first—only a quiet ease settling in his chest. Then something in him clicked, and a smile formed without permission. A need to laugh rose up as he brought the bat down again and again.

Each impact made the world feel heavier, more real, more present.

Eventually, the movement stopped.

The body no longer resembled anything human in his mind—just something still. Something finished.

He exhaled, as if satisfied.

His hands and the bat were stained. He looked at them for a moment, then simply dropped the bat into a nearby bin.

No hesitation. No rush.

He turned and walked away.

The streets were strange—too empty, too quiet. No streetlights, no movement. Just the faint echo of his footsteps against concrete. Everyone else was inside their homes, sealed away from the night.

Cyrus broke into a run anyway.

Not out of fear.

Not out of urgency.

Just a simple decision: home.

When he arrived, he stopped at the door.

He stared at his hands.

A small breath escaped him.

“It would have been better if it was real.”

Then he entered.

---

The house was dark, as if it had been left asleep. Quiet. Still. The kind of silence that feels heavier than noise.

Cyrus moved into the sitting room and sat on the couch.

For a moment, there was nothing.

No voices.

No presence.

Just the house and him.

Then—

“I saw you running, Cyrus. Where were you coming from?”

He looked up.

The lights were on now.

His aunt stood nearby, casual, as if nothing had ever been missing from the room. His cousins were there too, absorbed in a game on the TV, laughing and reacting to the screen.

“Oh, I just went out to buy some snacks,” Cyrus said with a small smile.

As she passed, she continued:

“Nathan, did you wash your school bag?”

“Uh, Mom, I will—don’t worry, tomorrow,” Nathan replied, still focused on the game.

“Ughh, I died—Mom, you got me killed!” Nathan complained.

“Ughhh,” Damien laughed, grabbing the controller from him. “You’re terrible.”

Nathan fell back on the couch dramatically as they kept arguing and laughing.

Cyrus watched them for a moment.

*I can never enjoy playing a story-based game with others. I’d enjoy it more on my own.*

He thought this without emotion.

He looked back down at his phone.

Cyrus was in a narrow space between buildings. The air felt heavy, like it didn’t belong to the day or night.

A group of boys surrounded him.

Voices overlapping—words he couldn’t fully focus on. Something about money. Something repeated.

He didn’t respond. He just stood there, still.

One of them shoved him.

Then again.

A sharp laugh.

The world felt distant, like it was happening slightly away from him instead of to him.

Then a voice cut through it.

“Hey!”

A girl stepped in.

She wasn’t hesitating.

She walked straight up to them like she already decided how this would end.

One of the boys tried to speak, but she slapped him mid-sentence.

The sound was quick. Final.

For a moment, everything froze.

Then the tension broke.

The boys backed off, laughing it off like it didn’t matter, like it had never mattered at all.

One of them muttered as they left:

“Can’t believe a girl is fighting for you.”

Footsteps faded.

Silence returned.

Cyrus didn’t know what to say.

He just stood there.

Then she turned toward him.

The anger was gone from her face now.

Only something softer remained.

She stepped closer and hugged him without asking.

Not tight. Not dramatic.

Just present.

For a moment, the world stopped feeling distant.

Then—



Cyrus woke up.

Cyrus's eyes snapped open.

For a moment, he lay still in bed, staring at the ceiling while his heart pounded in his chest. The images from his dream lingered like fading smoke—strange faces, distant voices, and a feeling he couldn't quite explain.

He rubbed his eyes and sat up.

"It was just a dream," he muttered.

Golden sunlight streamed through the curtains, bathing his room in a warm glow. The morning had already begun. Outside, birds chirped lazily while the distant sounds of traffic drifted through the neighborhood.

With a sigh, Cyrus climbed out of bed and began preparing for the day. He brushed his teeth, got dressed, and packed the few things he needed for class. Nothing about the morning felt unusual.

At least, not yet.

A few minutes later, he grabbed his bag and headed toward the door.

Just as his hand touched the handle, a shadow appeared beside him. Something brushed against his shoulder.

"Let's go, bruh."

Cyrus looked up.

It was Damien.

His cousin casually walked past him as though he owned the place.

Cyrus nodded. "Morning."

Together they left the house and began the familiar walk toward Sterlinford College.

Damien, as usual, couldn't stop talking.

"Bruh, yesterday I found this crazy anime. The fights were insane. And the main character—"

"Oh, dope", Cyrus replied absentmindedly.

Damien continued speaking with endless enthusiasm, describing characters, plot twists, and power systems. Cyrus barely listened. His cousin's voice slowly faded into background noise as his mind drifted elsewhere.

The streets bustled with students and workers beginning their day. Cars rolled past. People chatted. Everything felt ordinary.

Then Cyrus glanced at Damien.

An unsettling thought crossed his mind.

What if I just pushed him?

The thought appeared suddenly, without warning.

In his imagination, he reached out and shoved Damien into the road.

A truck came speeding around the corner.

CRASH.

The impact echoed through the street.

People screamed.

Pedestrians ran toward the accident.

Cyrus stood there smiling.

Finally, silence.

"Well, I'm going," Damien said.

His cousin casually stood up, completely unharmed, and walked away as though nothing had happened.

Peace.

For the first time all morning, Cyrus felt relaxed.

Then—

"Cyrus?"

He blinked.

Reality snapped back into focus.

Damien was still beside him, alive and talking.

"...and that's why the final episode was so good. Were you even listening?"

Cyrus stared at him for a second.

"Uh... yeah."

"You definitely weren't."

Cyrus simply shrugged.

The fantasy vanished as quickly as it had appeared.

Before long, Sterlinford College came into view.

The large campus stood proudly beneath the morning sun. Students filled the walkways, conversations overlapping into a constant hum of noise.

Cyrus and Damien split up near the main building.

"Later," Damien called.

"Yeah."

Cyrus headed toward his classroom.

As he walked through the corridors, his motivation slowly disappeared.

Do I really need to attend today?

The idea became more appealing with every step.

Maybe I should just leave.

Nobody would care.

He could go home, sleep, watch movies—anything sounded better than sitting through lectures.

By the time he reached the classroom door, he had practically convinced himself to turn around.

I don't see the point of attending today.

He took a step backward.

Unfortunately, fate had other plans.

"Cyrus."

A cold voice sounded behind him.

He froze.

Slowly, he turned around.

His teacher stood there with her arms crossed.

Her expression left no room for argument.

"Get in the class."

"...Yes, ma'am."

Defeated, Cyrus entered.

The classroom buzzed with conversation until the teacher followed him inside. Then the noise gradually settled.

He made his way to his usual seat.

The second-to-last desk in the first row.

Most students sat in pairs, chatting with friends before class began. Cyrus preferred isolation. Nobody sat beside him, and he preferred it that way.

At least, that was normally the case.

Today was different.

As Cyrus sat down, he noticed an unfamiliar face standing near the doorway.

A girl.

The class immediately began whispering.

She was clearly new.

Her name was Nova Zahwane.

The teacher introduced her briefly before pointing toward the remaining empty desk.

Unfortunately for Cyrus, that desk happened to be beside him.

Nova scanned the room.

Her eyes landed on the empty seat.

Then she began walking toward him.



Cyrus silently watched her approach.

Great.

She placed her books on the desk and sat down beside him.

For a moment, neither of them spoke.

The room grew quiet as curious students watched the newcomer.

Nova glanced sideways at him.

"Hi."

Cyrus stared at her for a second.

"...Hi."

And just like that, the most isolated seat in the classroom was no longer his alone.

The classroom remained noisy.

Students talked across desks, some laughing loudly while others were busy discussing assignments they had probably started the night before.

Cyrus wasn't listening to any of it.

His eyes wandered around the room.

The same desks.

The same walls.

The same students.

Then he noticed something.

Or rather, someone.

His gaze drifted toward the back of the classroom.

The usual group was there.

For a second, he realized he had been looking for her.

Not consciously.

It had just happened.

She sat in her usual spot near the back, surrounded by people as always. A few boys sat around her while she spoke animatedly, making the entire group laugh.

Cyrus quietly listened in from a distance.

They were talking about parties.

Again.

How expected of her.

He rested his chin on his hand.

She's like the queen of parties.

Every week it's a different story. A different event. A different gathering.

One of the boys said something.

The group burst into laughter.

And somehow she attracts every stupid boy in the college.

He looked away.

Not that I care.

A few seconds later he found himself looking back.

...Okay maybe a little.

It wasn't that he liked her.

Well...

He couldn't deny she was attractive.

Tall.

Confident.

The type of girl who never seemed unsure of herself.

The type of person who walked into a room and naturally became part of the conversation.

Cyrus hated people like that.

Or at least that's what he told himself.

The classroom noise faded into the background as he continued observing.

Time passed strangely when he was inside his own head.

A minute could feel like ten seconds.

Sometimes entire conversations happened around him without him noticing.

"Cyrus."

A voice suddenly interrupted his thoughts.

He blinked.

Nova was looking at him.

"Oh."

For a moment he had forgotten she was sitting there.

"My name is Nova Zahwane," she said with a friendly smile. "And you?"

Ehh. I didn't ask her that.

Cyrus looked at her for a moment.

She seemed like one of those people who could start a conversation with a brick wall and somehow make friends with it.

The energetic type.

The social type.

The type that didn't seem afraid of awkward silence because they simply filled it themselves.

Especially around boys.

Meanwhile Cyrus had been perfectly comfortable sitting there without saying a single word.

"I'm Cyrus."

"Ohhh."

Nova's face lit up immediately.

"Cyrus the Virus."

Cyrus slowly turned his head toward her.

"Eh, so you've heard?"

Nova laughed.

"Yeah. I've been hearing a few people talking about you."

It's nothing good that they speak of. That was his first thought.

It always was.

People usually didn't talk about him because they liked him.

Most people talked because they found him strange.

Or quiet.

Or rude.

Or because they didn't understand why he preferred being alone.

Cyrus shrugged.

"That's unfortunate."

Nova raised an eyebrow.

"Unfortunate?"

"Depends what they told you."

She laughed again.

"You know, you're not what I expected."

And what exactly were you expecting?

"A serial killer?"

Nova burst out laughing.

A few students nearby glanced over.

Cyrus simply stared at her.

She laughed way too easily.

Two students entered the class and immediately caught Cyrus’s attention.

They were girls.

One was from his class.

The other was her friend.

Cyrus’s eyes lingered for a moment longer than necessary.

The girl from his class was familiar.

Chelsea.

He noticed the tights first.

Nice tights… but not for style.

His gaze narrowed slightly.

To hide the scars on her legs.

He had seen them before.

Or rather, he had noticed them before and never really stopped noticing.

I’ve always wanted to know why she’d cut her legs when she has wrists… or thighs.

A pause.

Not that I’d ask her. She probably wouldn’t take me seriously anyway.

His eyes drifted away.

Then back again for a split second.

Her scars are more severe than I thought.

He exhaled softly and looked forward.

"Sit down, sit down darling," said Miss Shala as she stood up.

Cyrus glanced at her.

Classy one.

The type that looks like a gold digger but isn’t one… because she gets paid to act like she cares.

Miss Shala continued.

"Okay sweethearts, I believe you all know we have to continue the speeches. Whoever is next knows themselves. It’s their turn now."

She sat down slowly, scanning the room one last time. "I'm waiting. Don't waste time. I'm not afraid to give you 0%." Her eyes stopped briefly near Cyrus’s row.

"Fuck," Cyrus muttered under his breath.

Nova turned her head slightly.

"What is it?"

"Eh… didn’t expect her to remember that," Cyrus said.

"I guess you’re not ready," Nova replied lightly.

"Oh wow, I’m super ready."

"Ready for what?"

"To fail."

Nova blinked, then smiled faintly.

The boy in front of Cyrus started shuffling his papers nervously, dropping them, picking them up again.

Ugh.

Cyrus leaned back slightly.

The noise around him blurred.

The classroom felt slower now.

Or maybe he wasn’t moving with it properly anymore.

The boy eventually walked to the front.

Cyrus watched him for a moment.

Then—

He blinked.

And the boy was already speaking.

No transition.

No awareness of how he got there.

Just… suddenly there.

Cyrus exhaled through his nose.

Better.

The embarrassment wasn’t his anymore.

Time dragged and skipped in strange pieces.

Voices rose and fell without meaning.

Eventually—

"Next class is done," someone said.

Cyrus blinked again.

The period was over.

Huh.

"What's the next class?" Nova asked, stretching slightly.

"Computer science," Cyrus said as he stood up.

"You'll be showing me around then," she said, already following him.

"It seems so," Cyrus replied.

They left the classroom together.

The corridor was louder.

Footsteps, conversations, movement.

The girl from the back of the class passed behind them.

Cyrus noticed her again without meaning to.

*Perfume. She even bathe in such smelling perfume,it's like a potion for increasing male libido*

His mind registered it before anything else.

Then—

Short skirt. Thick thighs .

A thought flickered.

*If she ever fell…ahhhh It'll be a lovely scene, I'll..*

No.

Cyrus blinked once.

Nova’s voice cut through instantly.

"Cyrus, which class is your favorite?"

*Fuck.*

His attention snapped back.

"Oh. It's definitely not computer science. Philosophy 101. You'll like that one."

They reached the computer science classroom.

Cyrus stopped at the door.

"I'll be back," he said casually. "Gotta head to the toilets."

Nova entered the class and Cyrus wonders to wherever he was heading.

Cyrus skipped class by leaving the college grounds and wandering outside the campus. He eventually found a quiet spot in the campus park.

There, he noticed a girl sitting alone on a bench, scrolling through her phone.

At first, it was just a passing glance—but then he looked again. Her facial expression seemed slightly disturbed, like something was bothering her, yet she was trying to suppress it. Her shoulders were slouched, suggesting low confidence in that moment. She wrapped her arms around her stomach, as if seeking comfort or trying to warm herself up.

Cyrus observed all of this quietly.

He walked over and sat beside her. He noticed she was on Facebook.

When Cyrus was interested in someone, he naturally began questioning them. And if a conversation felt like it was about to end, he tended to keep it going—driven by his curiosity and the information he gained from people.

Without thinking much about it, he adjusted his body language to appear non-threatening, based on the small details he had picked up from her behavior.

He sat at a comfortable distance—not too close.

He didn’t immediately look at her, instead focusing on the nearby trees and a dog passing through the park. Silence didn’t bother him; in fact, he was comfortable with it.

Billie glanced at him briefly, then returned her attention to her phone.

She seemed to register that he wasn’t a threat—just another random person sitting nearby.

Cyrus noticed a change in her facial expression as she typed a message. A small spark of joy briefly appeared on her face—then vanished just as quickly.

He observed it quietly.

Hmm… whatever message she was typing seems to affect how she feels. Maybe she’s waiting for a response from someone she cares about, he thought.

She then put her phone down.

For the first time, she looked at Cyrus. He met her gaze.

"Hey," he said.

"Hey," she replied, then slowly looked away.

Silence settled between them, broken only by the breeze brushing through the trees and the wind moving across their skin.

"You okay?" Cyrus asked, glancing at her.

"I'm fine," she said, looking away.

She instinctively reached for her phone again but stopped midway, noticing Cyrus watching her. Her movements slowed slightly, as if she was trying to appear normal. Her attention was unstable.

Cyrus simply observed the inconsistency.

More than I probably should, Billie thought.

"Is there a reason you find yourself coming here more than you should?" Cyrus asked.

"Maybe I'm secretly homeless," Billie replied, a faint smile forming as her phone briefly caught her attention again.

"Well, I didn't mean to disturb your homelessness," Cyrus said, smiling lightly.

"You're interesting to talk to… we can talk a bit more if you want," Cyrus added.

Billie shifted her posture slightly.

"I'm Billie," she said after a small pause. She gave a quick glance at Cyrus, as if trying to gauge his reaction, followed by a slight half-smile.

"Billie Kagon," she added.

"Well, Billie, my name is Cyrus," he replied.

"Nice," she said. Silence settled between them again. She picked up her phone, looked at it briefly, then put it down once more.

"Shouldn't you be in class right now?" Cyrus asked.

"I could ask you the same thing," Billie replied.

A tiny beat of silence followed.

"I'm just taking a break. It's going well so far," Cyrus said, glancing back at her as their eyes met.

"Wow… and here I thought you were the responsible type," Billie said.

"I can handle not burning a cake, at least," Cyrus replied calmly.

"Do you actually bake cakes or is that just an example?" Billie asked.

"I do… from time to time," Cyrus said.

"Wait… you actually bake cakes?" Billie asked, surprised.

"Not as much as you're imagining it though," Cyrus said with a slight smile.

"That still doesn't explain why you bake though," Billie said playfully.

"You don't really act like someone who talks to everyone," Cyrus said, leaning back slightly in a relaxed position.

"Was it that easy to tell?" Billie asked, looking at him, now visibly intrigued.

"Yeah… I guess it's easier when someone's similar," Cyrus replied.

"I don't usually meet people like that here," Billie said.

"Oh? What kind of people do you usually meet?" Cyrus asked.

"People who talk a lot… but don't really stay," Billie said.

"Oh? What kind of people do you usually meet?" Cyrus repeated.

"The kind that walk into a room and suddenly everybody knows they're there," Billie said, then briefly glanced at her phone.

"Seems you meet a lot of types of people, huh," Cyrus said.

Billie looked down at her phone again.

"Something like that," she said after a small pause.

"They don't usually stick around long though," she added.

"Friends?" Cyrus asked.

"Some of them," Billie said quietly.

Cyrus thought for a moment. So this isn’t really about friends.

"I guess I like people who make things feel less quiet," Billie said.

"Do they know that?" Cyrus asked.

"Know what?" Billie replied.

"That you wait for them," Cyrus said.

Billie paused.

"Some people are worth waiting for," she said, then looked away.

"Why?" Cyrus asked. She glanced at her phone again, a faint smile forming as she traced her fingers lightly along the bench.

"Because when they're around… everything feels different," she said.

She looked down at her phone.

"Because sometimes they come back," Billie said softly.

A faint smile lingered on her face.

"And for a little while… it feels like they never left."

"Do they always come back?" Cyrus asked.

Billie smiled again—this time a sad kind of smile. Not crying. Not breaking down. Just a smile that understood something unpleasant.

"Eventually," she said. Cyrus immediately understood.

They leave. They come back. They leave again. She waits again.

"Just never when you want them to," Billie added.

Cyrus stayed quiet for a moment.

"You must care about them a lot," he said.

"Yeah," Billie said, looking down at her phone. The smile on her face faded slightly.

"More than I probably should," she added.

"Do you think they care about you the same way?" Cyrus asked.

"No," Billie said after a pause.

"Not really," she added quickly.

"But it's fine," she said.

"That doesn't sound fine," Cyrus replied.

"Why?" Billie asked.

"Because you didn't sound like you believed it," Cyrus said.

"You're weirdly observant, you know that?" Billie let out a small breath, almost a laugh.

"I just notice things," Cyrus said.

Cyrus didn’t respond immediately.



The words between them didn’t feel like something that needed an answer anymore—just something that existed in the space now.

He glanced at Billie for a moment, then looked away again, as if trying to understand something that didn’t have a simple shape.

Billie sat there quietly, her phone resting loosely in her hand, the earlier energy of her voice fading into something more distant.

The wind moved through the trees, carrying the sound of the campus far away, like the world was continuing without them noticing.

For a brief moment, neither of them spoke.

And then, just as easily as the conversation had begun, it didn’t continue.